Saturday, April 25, 2009
Saturday Night
Well my uncle James is in the hospital and isn't breathing on his own. he kind of have me worried but the other part isn't. he don't care about me he use people to get what he wants and he makes grandma cry. today was also nana funeral and that kind of brought my spirit down alittle. Thinking outside of the box this weekend and the weather getting hotter thoughts fulled my head as a question of what if? What if i didnt get pregnant, have tyree and was jus't put me would i yet still feel complete??? Don't get me wrong tyree is a blessing and my miracle baby and there is no way in hell i would trade him but i can't help to ask, god was he my purpose to make me see something. God is always giving me these damn test to just see how i can srvivve and at times it's like i can help but want to slip for the hell of it. Im going to sleep now because my brain hurts and so is my heart but why lord, why???
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HALF OF THE TIME THINGS YOU MAY GROW THROUGH. isnt a test its just that we can only believe that good must be testing.
ReplyDeletesometimes you have to just give it all up to him. let him lead not half way but all the way. let the Lord make the Judgements ...
you should know this but i just want you to remember it ... [FootPrints] its a known thingy thing ...[bad term but its late] well the person is looking back on his journey and talking to God ... looking at all the things he/she went through and saw that during this time it was only one set of footprints in the sand. asked the Lord why during the times when i need you the most was you not there? Lord said those were the times i carried you. Let him care you and lead the way.