Tyree Love

Good morning everyone, I havent even have the time to update everyone. It's difficult trying to keep up with a 4 month old baby and finishing school that I don't have no 'me' time for me.
Well here is my me time and I need to say hello . Oh man tyree is four months and getting bigger by the second.It don't even feel like time passed but it did. I never thought being a mother was this much work but it is and everyday I'm grateful to have such a spoiled and bratty kidd like mines. I love sleeping next to the most funniest most goofy kidd ever. It have it's days when the crying just don't stop and you can't take away little porkchop tears but patience is everything. That was my only advice into motherhood and let me tell you it is the best advice ever. Thurman and I are getting there, slowly things are getting better but in time it will be okay. As long as we continue to see eye to eye then no problem are being addressed at this point. Future might be in effect if we continue to not bring in our family/his family in the picture and take care of our son as a family. Don't get me wrong if he left, I will feel bothered but that will be based on his decision and me not forcing him to stay.
As Tyree mother, I've learned that love is a word and actions speaks louder than words or love and that is based on my experience. Being a young mother can be hard because you kind of miss the old life you had before. But was my old life as just lisa really worth it??? My new life as tyree mother is much more rewarding than the life i had before as just being lisa. It gets hard and its tough,don't forget nerve-wrecking but nothing justify the smile you see in the morning when you see that creation you made. You just fall back in love again and I'm not talking about that puppy dog love but that love you will love until...... And it was hard dealing with Tyree because I was going through so much with the family and no support and I had to look deep in my sons eyes and see that no matter what I needed this kidd just as much as he needs me. When I talk, he actually listens even though he don't know a damn thing I'm saying just him looking at me is quite okay to me. Missing out on the movie nights and the laughs with the girls gets to me alittle but I make my own fun with Tyree. Motherhood sure don't have a how to book because if it did, I will be the first in line. motherhood is about learning on the way because you bound to make mistakes. I've made them and he only 4 months so you know I'm learning the best I can and how. Today at 1:00 i will be taking a important test that determine our future.
My family and I will make it.
No matter how hard I try and fail, Tyree will have a better life than me.