When The World Isn't Right Without you?

If a question that needs to be asked once, it has been asked so many times. When will I have enough and the question is i don't know? When will my heart just let up and let go and my heart will most likely say never. I can't explain to you how much I will rather just call it a day but instead I want to just say goodnight and leave it at that. But I can't because there is someone who depends on me more than anything and that's Tyree. I come to him with all my problems and never though he can't talk, his little voice say hold on. Maybe because it's his dad or because he just love me that much. I don't know but if I die, you will know I died from a broken heart which I kept getting after everything. A year and a couple of months and yet I still feel scared or nervous as if I'm about to destroy our happy family. I got a bit mark from him and that is a better statement than to say, love me forever. You don't understand well nor do I? Will I ever try to understand, maybe not but i damn sure want to cry myself to sleep tonight. This day just seem to perfect this morning and now I know it can all be taken away in just a blink of a eye. Enough is enough most people will say but that's just because they don't know the meaning of enough enough is when you are saying in your mind, im done with him completely and don't want to ever speak to them again. but at that same moment will forget about it in a few days or seconds wahever. ENOUGH ENOUGH is when your done and you will rather him just choke on his vomit. Im not done with him, i basily just want him to understand where im coming from?