shellz

dear lover,
i figuered starting this off with a nice name would capture ur attention & make you feel like everything is alright.but truth be told.i regret ever meeting you.
i regret the day we first said "i love you".laying down and having a child is the only part i dont wish to take back.
but ur lies & your cheating and you dog ways just makes me sick.when i see you i have a urge to just kill you.
i really sit back and question myself y? y did i fall for you? y wasnt i strong enough to just let go & nip this all in the bud b4 it became this drastic
but i sumwhere deep inside of my torn broken up heart.still do love you.still want to claim you,something you found hard to do with me.
i think ive cried enough.been broken into more than just 2.not only hurting me but hurting yourself.to lie and move on and oretend that all of this
was just another writen subjuect in your book of games.but this chapter was more than just wat you expreienced in the past.i think it was more than you couldve bared
but how can i go on basing my life on wat couldve been.what shouldve been.and why isnt things perfect & layed down the way i thought it would be